Worried- originally a private message to a friend on Facebook. But I needed to share.

 And since I'm a chronic over sharer: Thursday through yesterday I had weird flashbacks. Like nostalgic remembering of my worst depression, even to a "happy" memory of being suicidal. I know that sounds crazy. Well, actually it is. I shook it, but now I'm worried about something else. I didn't shake it by reading scriptures or praying. I feel like I should have done it that way, but over 3 days that didn't work. I did pray and prepared for a lesson that I taught today in church, but that wasn't what got rid of that feeling. Last night I got on my computer and wrote a fan letter to a We Are The In Crowd and thanked them for their music. I told them about how I didn't feel like I fit in with anyone, but when I had met members of two other bands (JT from Hawthorne Heights and Chad Gilbert from New Found Glory) at concerts that they had said that I belonged there. And THAT got rid of the feeling. I'm a little worried that The scriptures were a temporary fix while they were open, but an email to 5 non-Mormon rock stars was the solution I needed. Sorry for that. I can't stop myself once I start writing.